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Even though it has only been 2 days, not even quite 2 days but pain is still cutting me up inside..*sighs* i know it is suppose to get easier but doesnt feel like it..



I still have hope that one day He will be back..When He came in my life, He completed me, made me whole and now He is gone, i am half again..Eternity is way it was suppose to be..



I know He is soul searching and didnt wish to hurt me further but He doesnt understand not having Him hurts worse..He knows i am here and all He has to do is call for me and i am there..I will always be here for Him..He holds my heart in His hands..

i have been having these feelings of late and isnt sure what to think..yesterday my soul was crushed and i am numb once again on the inside..



doesnt stop my feelings though..i am vampire and didnt think i should be feeling these things, of growing hunger screaming to be fed..my insides going crazy from all the thoughts and emotions stirring through my body..



doesnt understand what is happening to me and i have ask 2 of whom i hold highly on the pedestal of Knowledge..isnt sure on what Their answer is, confused and alone is what i am..wonders if i will ever find the answers i seek..



not sure how much more i can take..no matter what has happened, i still feel the same as i did before my heart was broke..love is a wonderful thing even for us vampires..wouldnt trade that for nothing in this wretched world..

today is harder than i thought it would be..when your soul was crushed beyond hope, heart heavy with sorrow..but knowing things will get better as days go back, but i will always love him and will be here for him..



thank You to my Friend, whose words i hold dear for being here with me, letting me cry on Your shoulder..Your words i listen too..sighs, have a great day..cannot sit here like everything is fine..it isnt.peace

today showed me what i thought all alone..i am destined to be alone, always opening myself up for hurt and pain..believing in something so much then have it break your heart in a million peices..but i will survive, always do and with the help of my friends here on VR, i know i will be fine..besides it is his loss, had the best thing but threw it away..



what sucked is, he kept saying it wasnt me or us..but lies, he knows better..SCORPIONS dont lie..least i dont..oh well reaper, your loss love but i wish you what you deserve..sorry i sound pissy but oh well shit happens..never piss off a female vamp..*smirks*